Grandmother

Mommie,

These hands of yours

Have made me

Feel safe even

On the darkest of nights

Your hands have taught

Me every recipe you know

They’ve comforted me,

Fixed my hair,

Wiped my tears

They held mine tightly

As we lost one of the

Most important men in our lives

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Grandpa

Warning: References to death (non-graphic).


March eleventh, twenty seventeen

That was when you left me

Your hugs, your smile, your laugh as well

Why didn’t you tell us you weren’t well?

I’m trying my hardest not to cry

But I hope you’re happy, up in the sky

The Second Eclipse

I hadn’t known you long,

But I felt closer to you than I’d ever thought possible

We both lost a father that day

And then, a month before his solemn anniversary,

You left to go be with him

You were far too young,

I suppose your heart just couldn’t take it

I wish it wasn’t so

Now Mother’s illness is worse,

There’s nothing a mere 16-year-old can do,

Except for watching the person she loves most

Break under the weight of the world.

It should’ve been the cruel, wretched man,

Who enjoys the cold embrace of evil

It should’ve been someone who deserved it

I’m sorry I didn’t get the chance to get to know you

I truly hope that you have peace, now.

The First Eclipse

Your eyes remained closed

You did not utter one word

You didn’t sit up

And say, “Hey, ‘Shanie!”

And then, so suddenly,

I was falling, falling

So fast and crashed

Into the black, cold abyss,

A growing pain inside my chest

As I fell deeper still

A sparkling glint caught my eye, oh!


Coins upon coins, watches,

Frames full of pictures

Painful memories flash before my eyes

Alas, the pain grows

To be so unbearable

I look upon my chest,

And through the flesh and bone,

My heart, my vulnerable, weary heart,

Had broken in two

All the pain,

All the sadness,

All the struggles

Had been

Too

Much

The tears cascaded down my face

This man, who loved me until the very moment he died,

I would never see for decades to come

“I love you, Grandpa.”

I whispered desperately,

But he did not hear