Romance

Word count: 74

Warnings: No warnings.


Have you ever loved so greatly,

You can’t remember your life before

You met them?

Your past, a dull, grey anomaly compared

To the joy and color they brought to your life?

 

Have you ever missed someone so deeply,

Every day you pray you’ll fall asleep, and

Wake up beside their beautiful, precious face,

But instead, you wake up to the dull, grey

Anomaly that is your life, longing for your

Lover to return.

 

Have you sacrificed your mind and soul,

Just to ensure their happiness?

To put aside your wants

Forego your needs,

To give their every desire,

To make Their dreams come true –

That is one of many great acts of love.

 

Oh, the feeling of warmth and safety,

The familiar, stunning smile

Of the one you’d thank

If they shattered you into a million pieces,

The bond between two which can never be broken,

True Love.

A hopeless romantic I shall remain,

Until, maybe, perhaps one day,

I’ll find my true love,

With them, I’ll spend the rest of my days.

 

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I’m Okay

Word count: 240

Warning: Sadness, mentions of depression


Why do I feel this way?
So sad, so hopeless, so empty
Longing to finally talk to someone
About everything that makes me want to hide
But it’s hard
It’s so hard

It’s so hard to confess my real feelings
When I don’t know how to put them into words
And even if I do, they catch in my throat,
Never to be spoken

I just don’t want to worry, and
I’m so scared of being judged,
Scared of being mocked

It’s so hard to let down my walls
And cry in front of you
When I’m so afraid of being weak,
Of being vulnerable, all because your words

It’s so much easier keep quiet and hide my feelings
It’s so easy to say “I’m okay”
When really, I’m far from it

I wish I had the courage
To be honest with myself
I wish I had the courage
To express myself,
Not just in words but to the people I trust most

But it’s hard
It’s so hard

It’s so hard to be happy
When the person you love most
Suffers every day and all their
Happiness has diminished
There’s nothing I wouldn’t do
If I could make you happy

I wish I could make you happy

I wish I could make myself happy

I can’t help that I feel this way,
It just happens
I desperately wish
I could explain why
But I can’t
It’s just too hard

Don’t Give Up

Word count: 88

Warning: No warning!


When it becomes too much,

And you give up on hope,

Remember the struggles you’ve been through

Remember the joy and comfort you find in your family and friends

Remember the reason why you’re sacrificing time, sleep, happiness…

Remember that you’ve come too far to give up now

It’s okay to take a breather,

To relax,

To unwind

Don’t bother your mind with the foolish chatter

Of mindless idiots who try to get in the way of your goal

You can do anything if you believe you can

Sister, Sister

Word count: 185

Warning: No warning!


I wonder what goes on in that head of yours,

Your dreams, your hopes, your ambitions

You’re such a beautiful girl,

It’s a shame, the choices you’ve made

They will forever follow you, even after death

You’re a cunning thief,

And an even better liar

The things you’ve done are almost unforgivable

I love you, sister,

But I hate the things you’ve done,

This persona of stupidity, the acts of treason

How could you hurt me like this?

I could’ve avoided this frustrating deafness,

These annoyingly weak eyes,

Those painful braces,

Family is not worth anything, sometimes

All they want is to suck every bit of joy,

Create chaos and confusion

You could’ve changed your ways,

I guess you still can,

But How can anyone trust you?

I wish I had Mom’s and Auntie M’s relationship,

To have a sister who loves me for who I am,

And not simply because of our mother

What happened?

Who made you hurt so much,

To have no respect for yourself

Is the saddest thing on Earth

I truly, genuinely hope,

That you find inner peace one day.

Happiness

Word count: 296

Warning:  No warnings!


Crying’s a weakness, she told me so

But I can’t help it when the thing I most aspire to be

Slips right through my hands

But David’s here, Whitney too

So many inspirations I could never meet

Though I know in my soul

They’ll be with me every step of the way (they always have been)

Never once have they let me down

They brought me my one aspiration

But what is happiness, truly?

True happiness cannot be wrapped

In pretty paper and bows

Nor can it be bought

I suppose it comes from deep within

Deep within your heart, mind, and soul

It’s only now I’m learning,

That it’s okay to be afraid

It’s okay to be sad

It’s okay to cry

It’s okay to be mad at the world

It’s okay to embrace your disabilities

It’s okay, because you are human

And there is not one human being

On the face of this Earth

That is perfect and saint-like

In fact, we’re all a bunch of sinners

But it’s the people who want to change, who want forgiveness

That go straight to heaven

I think I know what happiness to me is now

It’s my family

My animals

My friends

My teachers

The countless amount of people who are always kind to me

And most importantly,

It’s the love and respect I have for myself

No matter how many times I think negatively about myself,

No matter how many times I shame myself for my body,

No matter how many times I wish I was “normal”,

No matter how many times Life kicks me down,

No matter how sad I am,

At the end of the day, I realize just how amazingly unique I am

How blessed I am

That is happiness to me

 

 

Scum

Word count: 120

Warning: Angst, anger, general negative feelings.


When I first met you,

I looked up to you

As if you were another brother of mine

We took you in

And you stabbed us in the back

You betrayed in the worst of ways,

You lazy prick

I hope you’re happy,

Because I guarantee

You will never find another family

Like us

When I first met you,

I pitied you

You lost someone precious,

And I know now how that feels

But even so,

You did us wrong,

You liar,

You thief

I know you deviants

For what you really are

Lazy,

Gluttonous,

Traitorous,

Thieves,

Scum.

The only thing worse than you

Is the Devil that’s living in my house

I’ll be glad when I’m finally

Free