The Changes (Part 2)

Word count: 12

Warning: sadness, mention of death.


 

Winter turns into

Spring, I’ve lost another one.

It will never stop.

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Music

Word count: 47

Warning: No warning!


Much of my life has been surrounded by it

Usually just for fun, especially for special occasions

Sometimes it provided an escape from reality

It’s when the beat lifts my soul, and my worries with it, that I feel at peace, I just

Can’t live without it

The Kissing Hand

Word Count: 53

Warning: No warning.


A nighttime tradition,

Curling up to your side

Listening to your soothing,

Animated voice as I fell in love

With what became my favorite childhood book.

Chester The Racoon, an entity not unlike myself,

With such a sweet demeanor,

And slightly concerning separation anxiety,

The love we share for our mothers

Is unparalleled

 

Romance

Word count: 74

Warnings: No warnings.


Have you ever loved so greatly,

You can’t remember your life before

You met them?

Your past, a dull, grey anomaly compared

To the joy and color they brought to your life?

 

Have you ever missed someone so deeply,

Every day you pray you’ll fall asleep, and

Wake up beside their beautiful, precious face,

But instead, you wake up to the dull, grey

Anomaly that is your life, longing for your

Lover to return.

 

Have you sacrificed your mind and soul,

Just to ensure their happiness?

To put aside your wants

Forego your needs,

To give their every desire,

To make Their dreams come true –

That is one of many great acts of love.

 

Oh, the feeling of warmth and safety,

The familiar, stunning smile

Of the one you’d thank

If they shattered you into a million pieces,

The bond between two which can never be broken,

True Love.

A hopeless romantic I shall remain,

Until, maybe, perhaps one day,

I’ll find my true love,

With them, I’ll spend the rest of my days.

 

I’m Okay

Word count: 240

Warning: Sadness, mentions of depression


Why do I feel this way?
So sad, so hopeless, so empty
Longing to finally talk to someone
About everything that makes me want to hide
But it’s hard
It’s so hard

It’s so hard to confess my real feelings
When I don’t know how to put them into words
And even if I do, they catch in my throat,
Never to be spoken

I just don’t want to worry, and
I’m so scared of being judged,
Scared of being mocked

It’s so hard to let down my walls
And cry in front of you
When I’m so afraid of being weak,
Of being vulnerable, all because your words

It’s so much easier keep quiet and hide my feelings
It’s so easy to say “I’m okay”
When really, I’m far from it

I wish I had the courage
To be honest with myself
I wish I had the courage
To express myself,
Not just in words but to the people I trust most

But it’s hard
It’s so hard

It’s so hard to be happy
When the person you love most
Suffers every day and all their
Happiness has diminished
There’s nothing I wouldn’t do
If I could make you happy

I wish I could make you happy

I wish I could make myself happy

I can’t help that I feel this way,
It just happens
I desperately wish
I could explain why
But I can’t
It’s just too hard